Thursday, March 8, 2012

Courage.

Courage. That word really does sum up a lot eh? It can be used in so many different contexts and can be BOLD or mild.. can me tough, or soft... For me Courage intertwines with being an amazing parent. It takes COURAGE to be a good mommy, a patient mommy, a fun mommy, a strict yet loving mommy.
As you are well aware I have a mini me who is just 4.5 years old. And as much as we have fun, and experience new things together we have our battles.. our struggles as mother and daughter who don't always see eye-to-eye on a few things.

Takes me back to my wonder years battling it out with my mom. who then I thought was the wicked witch of the North,South, East AND West.. (sorry mom) but have now come full circle to realize that, not only was she just trying to be a pain in my ass, but my mom was only protecting me, guiding me, instilling values that I pull from now and integrity that I'm trying to plant in my two gems today.

As I sit here on a quiet morning having just sent my little girl into the world (preschool) I find myself constantly catching myself praying over her, hoping I have done a good job in these few years to guide and mold her to be a whole heart little girl in this world, full of so much garbage.

2 mornings a week for 3 hours she is on her own. She says what she wants without being corrected, she is a total free spirit and has complete freedom to be her own person without me peaking over her shoulder. I struggle knowing that I haven't been given enough time, enough hours to make her into who I want her to be, but at the same time try to sit back and say that she has to do this on her own.. But 4 years old??? she is just a baby! I was just holding her swaddled in the few blankets that we had, I was just up at 3am nursing her and singing her to sleep, I was just teaching her how to go down a slide, to put her shoes on the right feet, to drink out of a 'big girl cup', giving her treats for a job well done on the potty.. Where did the time go??? why is she slipping away from me?

in 6 short months she will be going to Kindergarten.. starting her first few years of SCHOOL. I thank God everyday for the opportunity we have been given for me to stay home full time and watch my girls grow, take their first steps, say their first words.. and now I find myself really struggling knowing that she is going to be spending more time with a stranger then nestled under the wing of her mama. Am I weird? is this normal? As I was going through all her baby stuff (having a moment..lol) I came across the letter I wrote to Reese when I found out I was having a girl... Here is what it says.

"Dear Baby Girl,
Hello there, I'm your Mama... wow that sounds weird..I'm only 20. and you have already turned my world upside down(for the better) I cant say you were a mistake, because I would never ever want to burden your little heart that way.. Besides you are so helpless right now, Me and your daddy are all you got to make it in this world. Just because we don't have a house, or a lot of money doesn't mean we aren't going to try so hard to make this the best life for you, to Love you unconditionally, to sing to you, bathe you & teach you.. Its a bit overwhelming only being 20 and pregnant. But your going to do amazing things..and I can't wait to share the possibilities with you

I met your daddy when I was 12. He's great, and he sure does love you a lot already... he sings to you! Do you hear him? he plays guitar for you everyday.. I think you like it because you don't stop dancing each time he plays.. maybe you'll be a musician? or a dancer?

I find out you were a girl a few days ago, I'm so excited to hold you, and kiss you and for you to call me mommy..
We're going to make it little one.. just one day at a time.
Love you forever, xoxo
Mama "




the day you came home from the hospital we stayed at my parents house.

just hours old.. you were such a perfect little newborn.


Now each time I read this I bawl.. that time in my life was so difficult, yet exciting.. stressful yet calm at the same time. Reese brought such a different dynamic to our life and to everyone around us. She brought people closer and made me grow up. There are so many things I want to say to her that her little mind just doesn't understand right now.. but one day I will, but until then I wrote her another letter today to staple behind the letter I wrote 5 years ago.

"Dear Reese,
your 4.5 already and so amazing. You teach me new things everyday, mostly how to be a little bit more patient because you are somewhat difficult on days, but more, you teach me to open my heart a little bit wider, to try new things and not to be afraid. Do you know I just played hockey this weekend for the first time? and you were my inspiration.. jumping in with two feet and seeing how we make out is how you roll. You have the most compassionate heart when it comes to younger children, or animals.. you always want to help fix the hurt and mend the broken. I'd like to say you get that from me.. but you are so much better at it!
We moved across the country this year.. Daddy got a new job in Saskatchewan and we packed up almost a year ago.. There wasn't a single day I was so happy to have you and your little sister to talk to, to cuddle.. you made this transition so much easier.. you were so eager to meet new people and try new things. All of my friends here are because of you! Your bubbly personality made it so much easier to strike up a conversation with a fellow mommy.
I pray for you everyday. and every night. Your heart is so pure, even though you tend to get yourself in trouble on most days... but we're working on it ;)

I want you to know how much I cherish you and love you and have enjoyed stepping into parent hood as your mommy.
I pray as you enter these next few years of school that you continue to hold your head up high with integrity, to continue to stand up for the weak and be there for that kid who hasn't made any friends yet.. you are so good at being friends with everyone.
There's not a second that passes that doesn't make me so proud to be your mom. I love you my girl.. Forever. xoxo 



Mama"

me and my girl

our first SK winter. you braved it so well ;)


So as I wrap up this, I started off talking about courage. And from the moment I found out I was having Reese until now, not a day has gone by that I haven't relied on having courage to face each new day as a Mom.. and as a best friend to these two girls I brought into this world. and I encourage you to take from this that its not roses and lollipops being a mom, far from it. But with COURAGE, DEDICATION, COMPASSION, PATIENCE (the list could go on) do your best.. love your kids, kiss your kids, hug your kids... pray for your kids, you will learn as much from them as they will from you.

“Perhaps it takes courage to raise children..” -John Steinbeck, "East of Eden"



xoxo Kait 

Sunday, February 19, 2012

Outdoor Madness!

Well its been a fantastic couple of weeks.. I have started writing this post..probably about 3 times! But we have been so busy doing fun things that I never got a minuet to finish one post, then something else would come up!!
So The night I said "Ill write each week, I promise!" well... I TRIED! here we are two weeks later already, my oh my time flies when your having fun! or so tired that you collapse on your bed each night praying daylight stays away just a wee bit longer..but alas HERE I AM, and im FINISHING THIS POST! TONIGHT!!!


The night I left off with you last I hurried along and tided up my house to get ready for another Monday when I got a phone call from my husband asking me to fix him a snack.. you know the usual call I get on most night shifts, anywhere between 9-11pm (but the amazing wife I am.. there is always a snack waiting for him on the counter whether or not I am sleeping or awake) He continued to ask me how I was, how my night was.. how the girls went to bed.. then "Oh yah.. I rolled my truck tonight.." .. pause.. deep breath on my end of the line.." YOU WHAT??..How on on this green earth do you FORGET to mention that??" Well Im fine, truck's not.. but Im fine..
Getting those phone calls reminds me of how blessed I am to have a healthy husband that comes home every shift change whether or not its on time or not... he's home..
Last week was quiet as we were all getting over the cold that has been vamping through our tiny little town knocking us all down hard and fast.. we had alot of movie days that turned into movie nights.. with the end of the week feeling better.. we dug into the finger paints, and made some homemade Bird feeders.. and decorated for valentines day :)

They really are the best of friends.. melts my heart when I catch them cuddled together.

 Bird Seed. Peanut Butter. Toilet Paper Rolls and LET THEM GO :) This was a huge hit.. time friendly.. a little messy... but what isn't messy with 2 and 4 year olds!
 Spread the PB - and Roll in bird seed :)
 VOILA!


You can never go wrong with cutting up dollar store sponges.. giving a pile of paint and paper to toddlers and let their imagination do the rest :)
After each time she put her hands in the paint.. "I dirty mom!"






 Last week was great :) Took it Easy, and got Crafty :)

Another great thing that happened this week is that my mom booked tickets to come see is in April!! Pretty stoked to see my mommy again :) 6 weeks and counting!!
WE CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU BAMMA!

So This week is "Family Day" in Saskatchewan.. something we do not do..BUT SHOULD, in New Brunswick.. so because Daddy has to work on the holiday we thought we would take Family Day and turn it into Family WEEKEND! Justin had from Thursday-Sunday off and we made every second of it count, its rare we get to see him for that long! Thursday we got up bright and early and headed into the City for a day of fun! We headed straight to the Shaw Center for some swim time! and of course my little water bugs lovvvved this idea! I don't have any pictures because I locked my camera in the darn lockers before realizing it and we only had one token :( BOO! But I can assure you the girls had a blast, and for a decent price we will be back visiting again soon! We then headed to Fuddruckers for supper! BEST BURGER EVVVVVVER!!!!!! Im not a Burger person, but this burger was like to.die.for :)

The girls were pretty beat after a few hours in a pool and eating the biggest and best-est hotdogs ever! (they aren't hamburger kids) So we hit the road for the 2 hour drive home.. Oh wait...wait wait wait.. No.. We went to Canadian Tire where my husband walked away in search for new windshield wipers LOCKED the door and went inside.. when I went to open my door to put stuff in the trunk (not thinking) not only did the Horn start going off uncontrollably and me not being able to shut it off.. but I had to sit in the front seat trying not to make eye contact with people who were walking by stareing at me like I was some sort of crazy person! 20 minuets later... he returned! "Who locks the car when we are all still in it !!!" he laughed... a lot.

Friday we had a family day at home.. made crafts, cleaned garages, cleaned basements.. you know regular family day stuff! Saturday I hosted my first ever "home party" where all of 4 people showed up.. BUT we had fun, chatted, drank coffee and ate delicious dips! I don't LOVE parties but I do love this stuff and am on the fence of becoming a Consultant <-- Check it out!
Saturday night we headed over to our lovely neighbors.. ate supper, played cards and let our children run wild until 11pm.. we always hope they will crash and they never do.. when we realized that they were a little TOO quiet we realized the two older ones had opened the freezer, pulled out a box of popsicles and we don't know exactly what happened but between two 4 year olds, one 3 year old and two 2 year olds 18 popsicles were missing.... Yup - Time to go HOME!

 10:30am this morning we geared up with our neighbors again (we love them! lol) headed to Chitek Lake for a day of Ice fishing, sliding and fun outside in the beautiful temperatures!
 Drilling holes for the shack! although it was so beautiful out we spent most of our time outside soaking up some sun rays!
 The girls so eager to get in and fish.. although that wore off pretty quick..
 Reesie Girl fishing.. with no luck :( But she tried!
 After the girls were getting a bit ansy we decided to haul out the GT's and take them for a spin!! Down a pretty decent hill
 As you can see.. poor Norah had a bit of a crash!

 WE CAUGHT A FISH! :) Girls were pretty excited at the catch for the day!
 Guess we'll be cooking Fish for lunch tomorrow :)
 Reese and the Fish!
The boys are pretty proud of their catch!


We are enjoying our winter here in SK... not nearly as bad as we thought ;)
Catch ya next week!!

THE FINLAYS :)

Sunday, February 5, 2012

Falling behind...

I guess my life is on high speed and I have fallen so behind -Yet again! I really need to start back up with my weekly blog posts! so you as my viewers PLEASE encourage me to write more.. !
January oh how I loath January, mainly because another year has wrapped up, my girls are one more year older, IM one year older, our life is zipping past and I feel, although this was a crazy year, that Im not taking each breath to its fullest, Im not stopping to smell the flowers, Im always in a hurry. So - This year as my wonderful husband and I have both decided to take our Health as priority, and to just slow down.. appreciate all God has give us and breath it all in. 

Christmas Morning 2011!
We missed to post anything in December, So I will catch you all up a bit. Norah got her first hair cut, much to mommy's dismay as I always wanted to have my little girls to have long beautiful hair. But Norah just hates when I touch it, or even come close with a brush! but it suits her so well :)
 Reese laced up her skates for the very first time and did AMAZING! I am soooo proud of her hard work and dedication she never gave up! way to go Reesie mommy loves you so much !:)




Daddy worked a lot but then we got to enjoy him for 10 whole days at the end of December, Christmas came and went - J finished off his last shift on the 28th and we all (including J's Parents) packed into the minivan and jetted off to Edmonton for a mini get-away. Got to enjoy the West Edmonton mall and all its glory & the giant indoor theme park with the girls! although the trip was short and sweet the drive back was not so much fun 20 minuets into the haul back Reese had a little mishap with her stomach not agreeing to settle, and making a mess all over herself, and a van full of people having to endure the smell for the rest of the journey home. Pushing that aside we had a great get away! Coming home to enjoy daddy watching play hockey for the Timberwolves here in Spiritwood! Go Daddy GO!

MERRY CHRISTMAS 2011


those were the biggest suckers possible. of course they picked those out for a treat!



This is what I needed for January!


January, like stated above - we wanted to slow down and take in the world and I TOTALLY did so.. so much that I think I got myself into a bit of a rutt! we didn't do ANY-T-H-I-N-G, and we all got sick with the flu, which slowed us down even more- yuck. We stayed put for so long Norah really got the hang of potty training! yay! We had a few gatherings at our humble abode - We hosted my lovely in-laws for a week over new years. It was so nice to have family here, big beautiful suppers with more then just the 4 of us, lots of laughter and noise through out the walls of our home, something that just makes my heart sing.. and along with my early mornings I always had company to sip my coffee with! These times are truly treasured so COME ON PEOPLE, COME VISIT US! Saskatchewan really is a beautiful place! and luckily for them they didn't have to enjoy our below 50 temperatures! Thanks for coming guys.. it truly is a blessing to have family travel this far just for us!Papa's Girl! Treasured moments for sure <3



Christmas/New Years dinner :)
Happy New Year Everyone :)!!
We also celebrated Daddio's birthday while Nana and Papa were here, and then again with our Spiritwood family - sorry not many pictures as I was running around, as I do, when Im in hostess with the mostess mode! We truly have been blessed with a great group of people who love us very much and strive to make us as comfortable as here as can be!


 And just like that,all of a sudden, hello February you came so fast? look at that! January my most loathed, detested, gloomy month is GONE! Onto LOVE month. So far so good!


We have sadly had to say goodbye to our Keeonah.. with little to no success of trying to keep her in our yard.. the town rules - she's got to go. breaking it to each girl was very different.. because Norah isn't quite realizing what is happening she just played along to Reese's emotions which were more then dramatic, after about 3 days of asking for Keeonah and running to her room to sob on her bed, countless times of explain to her that its just in Keeonahs nature to run and she wasn't happy here, she finally came around to letting her go. We still have our lazy pup Phoenix who is as happy as can be to just lay in the sun on the patio. Keeonah is off to a Farm about an hour away where she will have endless amounts of acres to run and be free and a nice loving family to come home to at night.
Saying goodbye to her will be harder then I think as she is our piece of home.. but its just not right to have her penned in our yard and not have enough time for her with raising a young family. she has brought much joy (along with some not so much joy) to our family and kept us on our toes! we will miss the cuddles she so gladly offered to us each night. We know it is within her best intrest to have a farm and a young couple that can dedicate more hours then we could have possibly imagined.
We love you Keeonah with all of our hearts and will miss you fur baby. xoxo

Well thats a wrap to our family up until now! and I promise WEEKLY UPDATES :)
XOXOXO
The Finlays